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Snowy Hopes and Dreams
18 January 2003 @ 10:14 a.m.
My feelings of anger, disappointment, frustration, and trouble are gone. The higher powers in the world smiled on me over night and gave me a pristine, fluffy, sparkling, white blanket of snow. From my window, it looks like over 8" fell last night, but I can't be certain.
And it is still snowing. The fir trees across the street are heavy with white fluff. It's gorgeous. Mother Nature knows true beauty. I commend her on this morning.
While last night's activities were going on, everything really was going great. I love that music. Really I do. Though I am still in disbelief of being ditched.
The beer led to a fantastic dream last night though. I can't remember details, but it left me in a fantastic mood this morning. And while it wasn't sexual (god I never have those anymore) it involved male relationships. They must have been good for how content I feel today.
I hope the contentness allows me to concentrate and be productive. I am already feeling the slide back down, down to where I was in November and December. And I can NOT let that happen. That is why T came back. He's the support I need. Granted, his support comes in the strangest ways, but he offers me self-esteem.
The snow gives me this hope. Today will be better than yesterday.
currently reading: Blood of the Fold - Terry Goodkind
currently listening: The radio - Mix 93
